Doubting Doubts
I am broken. I seek control of the unknowns. I strive to be perfect. I try to wrestle the world's issues like they rest on my shoulders. I find ways to blame myself for everything that goes even slightly wrong. I wake up feeling unworthy. I feel as if I won't measure up, I'm not strong enough. As I've entered this new challenging adventure many doubts have consumed my thoughts. All of my course work is challenging. The longer I think about it the heavier it all rests in my mind and the faster time passes by. My success in these classes determines my future. I've realized something, I'm destined to fail because I will never be capable to conquer any small part of this world. The crazy thing about fully trusting Christ is that the longer your trust Him the more you realize how incapable you are to fulfill the tasks. You realize that your desire to be in control is painfully strong. Then you doubt. Think...