Lizzy's Footprints

I am broken.  I seek control of the unknowns.  I strive to be perfect.  I try to wrestle the world's issues like they rest on my shoulders.  I find ways to blame myself for everything that goes even slightly wrong.  I wake up feeling unworthy.  I feel as if I won't measure up, I'm not strong enough. As I've entered this new challenging adventure many doubts have consumed my thoughts.  All of my course work is challenging.  The longer I think about it the heavier it all rests in my mind and the faster time passes by.  My success in these classes determines my future.  I've realized something, I'm destined to fail because I will never be capable to conquer any small part of this world. The crazy thing about fully trusting Christ is that the longer your trust Him the more you realize how incapable you are to fulfill the tasks.  You realize that your desire to be in control is painfully strong.  Then you doubt.  Think...

Dear Andrew and David,      How do I even begin?  Y'all have driven me insane my whole life!  To be fair, I've done some of the trouble making too.  I can't believe we've come to this point.  Growing up I always envisioned myself at college, but I never saw this part coming.  This is the bitter sweet goodbye, that shakes my soul.  I can't comprehend how life will be without yall constantly being around.  I blame the difficulty of saying goodbye on mom and dad.  I mean they made us live in an RV!?!  Even when they were frustrated or discouraged by our fighting and disagreements, they were raising best friends, their three goofy monkeys. Andrew, I couldn't be more proud of the man you've become, and I know that God has greatness on your path ahead.  I can't believe you are already at NC State already moved in.  They don't even know how lucky they are to have you.  I couldn't miss you more.  We've ...

Hello, my lovely devoted blog readers!  I've been focusing on my photography these past few weeks.  I am excited to share it with you all.  So I published  secarroll.com  my photography website.  I hope that you all enjoy it.  I will be writing more soon! Have a grand week!  I look forward to posting later this week.

     Today, the next 24 hours are an adventure for me.  I have no idea what they hold, I could guess who I may see but that isn’t even known for sure.  Today could be a day I’ll remember forever or simply another building piece to the process of life.  What if the past repeats itself today?  What if today changes the path of tomorrow? There are very few of us living in our current set of 24 hours.  We either dwell in the past or try to control our future.  We lose sight of the fact that all we can do is live. Life is all about the journey and the process not about the destination or the plan.  The events in life that challenge us and break us down are meant to form us into our future selves.  However, we use them as weapons against ourselves.  They come back to haunt us, to break us over and over, then ultimately we never change we just become more broken.  I make mistakes daily, I am a walking mess, but it is es...

Love is the most complicated thing.  It's a concept I'll constantly be trying to wrap my head around.  It is the reason behind everything.  We celebrate Easter and good Friday, knowing the reason why Jesus died on the cross and saved us from our sin is that He loves us deeper than can be fathomed.  In 1 John 4:19, we discover that we love because Christ first loved us.  The hardest thing to do is love but to love is also the easiest thing to do. Recently I've discovered some amazing things about love.    Distance makes the heart grow fonder.  Whether the distance is physical, spiritual, or both spending time away from the ones you love in some strange way only makes you love them more.    To let go and let God, is a pure kind of love.  When you are able to do hard things for the ones you care about you experience a new depth to love.    A broken heart is a blessing.  In order to have a broken ...

For many years I have felt like God has been playing this big joke on me.  He created me very people oriented and then placed all my people hundreds of miles away.  I've struggled with but also thrived in my long distance relationships.  I've had relationships that have formed entirely over long distance and relationships that simply continued to be long distance after meeting at a camp or on a mission trip.  In the beginning, these friendships taught me the importance of being a prayer warrior, and how prayer can bring people closer to one another even miles apart.  To this day the long distance relationships that support my life are the best gifts God has ever given to me.  As I started to complain to God about my relationships all being long distance, He gracefully reminded me that everything He does is done for a reason. Distance is physical, not spiritual.   Distance builds spiritual strength.  I've come to reali...

I walked into God's presence today.... I heard the ground praise.   I saw the plant trust. I watched as the dust served. The water showed me how to thirst. The wind taught me how to breathe. My eyes saw His grand beauty  My ears heard the earth praise  My nose smelt the wonder of God My mouth fails to express the glory He deserves My hands felt the detail in His creation This week the earth taught me how to worship.  In all that nature does it praised God.   I got lost in my wilderness.  While I'm not like the Israelites and I haven't been wondering in a literal wilderness, I found myself wondering through life.  Just like the Israelites I was paying attention to all I didn't have and not the blessings that were constantly being poured on to me by Christ.  Instead of being in awe that God was giving them manna daily and providing water through rocks, they spent there time looking for the things that weren't th...